Sunday, 6 June 2010

OCD



Today I have got a confession to make .. Yep a confession about me being a very troubled young lady << please don't feel sorry for me :( It's a fact that I'v been dealing with for a long time , ruined my life , took away my enjoyments , stressed me out , and always got the best out of my nerves .. Ladies and gentlemen , may I present to you my OCD !!

Yes , I have OCD and I'm not proud . I can tell you how much it sucks to be OCDed . I'm a very very very picky person by nature , and havin' the OCD just made everything hell worse for me !! Ughhh I always drive my mother crazy while in the kitchen because I have to clean everything .. I take three hours to make a salad because I need to wash the vegetables with soap a dozen of time !!

My friends think I'm nuts for I keep a bottle of liquid soap in my bag , I have two kinds of sanitizers , Dettol wipes , and a Dettol liquid in my locker .. yeah .. Dettol is like my best loyal friend , I use it in almost every thing . When I take a shower I wash my body first with Dettol . I wash my clothes with Dettol , and it's impossible for me to clean anything without using Dettol . I had times when I couldn't touch anything , not a single thing even if it was mine .. my mobile , my books or anything that I could imagine to have germs or bacteria .


I also have a crazy weird stuff .. SOCKS I really have an issue with socks << awkward huh ? I can't stand staying with a pair of socks for more than two hours , and at the university because I walk a lot , my socks get a lot of dust and stuff and I just feel sick when I spot them , so I started to keep extra socks in my school bag & in my locker so I can change when ever I want ! See ?

And here is one thing more. My OCD is not only with cleanness , it's almost with everything . For example , I get extremely distracted in my classes when a teacher writes a leaning line or misspell a word .. I keep thinking of that wrong letter and how can I make that line straight < get me waaay nervous at times !! Anyways , I'm workin so hard to overcome it .. it's not easy at all I know , but I'll keep going in hopes of a little change and .. fingers crossed  !!

Hmmm , I think that's it for my little bitty pathetic life xD what about you ? Has anyone had any stories with OCD ? I'll be so excited to have you in the club ;)

3 comments:

lola said...

I thought that I have problems...but after reading these problems,I am a human being...O dear, you need Dr.Maysara or Dr.afaf Mahdar...good luck ...

Fadiosis said...

awwwwwwwwwwww... girl i'm an OCDer by nature, by birth, by law, by whatever authority that could grant me OCD....

except that my OCD has nothing to do with cleaning... not that i'm filthy, but if i cleaned it's because it's either i clean the WHOLE room or i clean nothing...

now that u inspired me, i might talk with details about the matter...

p.s. I love your new template..
p.p.s. I love the fact that I know you one post better than others :)

Beyond Me said...

Lola .. I believe I do !!!

I know .. I kinda got the courage to reveal it when you talked about it a few times . Lookin' forward to read yours and thanks dear ^^